31st August 2008. Malaysia’s 51st Independence Day, and a very weird day in my own life. Fun, but weird too. All part of life, i’m guessing.

In the morning i went to church with Charity. It was REALLY far away and REALLY REALLY different! The experience was deafening. xD I learnt a lot of new things, that’s for sure.. especially not to give your number to someone who’s ‘SO sure you’re the right girl for him’ after knowing you for about, 5 minutes. Sleazy, or what? There were other circumstances of course, but i still feel really idiotic. NEVER again will i do that. I am an idiot. Self-proclaimed, but it’s true.

It was like, 4pm by the time i got home. I had time to shower, hug someone and get ready to go see Mia and You Sop. That was fun too! We took the Ikano bus and i told them all about my Prince Charles. xD The two Korean girls are really really fun and they’re all so friendly and not the slightest bit pretentious. We watched THE LOVE GURU, which is ABSOLUTELY DUMBLY HILARIOUS! Hats off to Mike Myers. Then we came back here (WE being Noreen, Amelia, Carolyn and Adeline) in a stuffed car. 10 of us in the Fortuner! Noreen and I lost our butts for a few moments. Dropped the two Koreans at the LRT station then went to Kayu for dinner. Then came home.. and PLAYED TILL 3 AM!

WOOT!

Still feeling a bit darned from the 4 hour sleep.

But i had a good time and i love you guys

UHUH. BLOODY ANNOYING I TELL YOU! But don’t worry, hormonally imbalanced as i am, i won’t be violent. I’m an animal-rights activist (YEAH, even for cats xD )

Yesterday was so fun. We had a surprise birthday party for Jeya. Kudos to the two dolls Mabel and Piki. They did surprisingly well and we had a good SILLY time at Chillis. Wen Yuin and I play only!

It was really fun to then hang out with Isabelle and Noreen and all of them. Walking for ages to look for drinks. Ended up with just water from Jusco. DAMN DUMB! Then went to Big Apple but i sat outside just observing people.. and criticising. Bad bad girl. But so fun la. Cuz i had someone sitting with me ma.

Yupp. That person really made my day. We had something like a fight the day before but i didn’t know what to do. I’m just glad we’re alright now and i’m in love.

la la la-ness. woot!

I think about you all day.

And i love you so much.

But this is not going anywhere.

I don’t get you.

You don’t get me.

Our love is almost.. superficial.

It hurts to admit, but i have to.

You do what i don’t do, and you don’t do what i do.

And i’m tired of trying to control you because i know how that will end up.

But it’s not me to not hold you with reins. I’m sorry.

I just want us to be okay again.

And i’m sorry i didn’t tell you earlier but i love you too.