yes. it’s just all kinda screwed up right now.

my education for instance. i have no idea what to do after SPM. i don’t want to go somewhere without my two bestest friends! i adore them and they’ve both been my source of strength, fun and inspiration as well as motivation all this while. :’(

the worst part about this all is SPM, i think. i know SPM is exactly 4 weeks away but there is nothing i can do for more than 25 minutes! it annoys me, because everything i do besides study makes me feel guilty. how does anyone live with that?

and it’s only been lately i’ve been happier with my sugarbear. before that i felt so distanced.

and i won’t be going for Sunday School on the 28th because i’ve gotta go for the Scholarship Presentation thing. sigh. i was really looking forward to it.

and to those who didn’t know, i got the full A-levels scholarship from HELP. ecstatic and sad at the same time because my two darlings didn’t.

God, help me.