i don’t know why. it’s about Forum i know, but i don’t know why. i don’t remember feeling like this last year when i went. sigh. maybe i am going to miss Lit Nite practice and stuff. i won’t like that really. sigh.

it’s getting to my tummy now. i kinda’ have this phobia of not bringing enough stuff, i’m just SO glad my mom will be in Penang too, and with her credit cards, xD.

first day of Lit Nite practice sucked, but since then everything’s been really good. i made new friends, and started to bring out my acting self again. Perseus and Grumpy. i NEVER get female characters which are sad. i always get comical laughable male characters for Lit Nite somehow. DAMN.

i’m gonna miss everyone here, especially Adeline, Noreen, Carolyn and Martin. i don’t know why these four, but i hope they miss me too. at least two of them will for sure, xD! AND LAURA TOO! I CAN’T WAIT FOR WORLD REFUGEES’ DAY!

Pn Sabina got mad today for Lit practice, sigh. again. but anyway, i gotta go now. don’t know where, i just wish Martin would come on. sigh.

bye now! I LOVE Y’ALL!

sighh. doing out the Lit Nite practice schedule for the holidays. yes, yes, i got the wonderful job again! Performance Director. but this year, there’ll be no Zidler to play. i haven’t gotten myself a part yet, due to TONNES of unforeseen circumstances. i’m hoping i’ll land something during the next two weeks, but it is my last year, and to get something major will be super hard.

my exams have totally tired me out, and right now i’m in a tiny bout of depression due to waking up after dark. i know i hate it, but i’ve been sleeping later in the afternoons nowadays. it’s so annoying. anyway, i’ve been going on and on about this whole "universe is my slave" thing, but i can’t seem to use it yet. sigh. maybe i am just, being a teenager. sigh. i hate this time of month, damnit.

besides that, today was boring. we had lunch with Alden, but other than that it was a SUPER HOT annoying Sunday with nothing to do. right now Aunt MJ and Uncle Richard are in the living room discussing with mom about Aunt Faustina’s husband. SO FREAKY. sigh.

i just want something cool to do right now! i have not gotten a chance to watch Spidey3 or PotC. now that’s another annoying thing! and our debate is coming soon, but all of us are tired of debating. even me, although i am very passionate about it. the topics are just BLEAH sucky!

somebody save me, and love me.

ahaha at least i think i do. i was ga-ga over the paper. and Physics wasn’t too bad either. anyway, i don’t want to think about it. just one more day… before the holidays and freedom from that one annoying element, called examinations. can’t wait to watch like, tonnes of movies. go shopping and Forum! OMG i can’t wait for that, don’t know why but feeling a little nervous about it.

i miss Martin! it’s been ages since he came online, it was really nice of him to bother texting when he changed his number. it’s so cool how in Hillingdon they study outdoors, if we tried that here we’d die of internal heating. he’s having his exams now and going to Uni soon. can’t wait for him to get here!!

other than that The Secret has been kinda’ good for me. it’s this whole psyching thing that kinda’ works for me. Rhonda’s voice is really calming. and whatever she says is like, kinda’ true.

Laura Low Jia Xin i miss you! our debate’s like in two weeks, oh gosh. and i just finished reading your blog, so many things have been going on for you but i didn’t know. sigh. i hate it how times are so different for us now! you’re still as sweet and funny as you were though. =)

i’m dreading the holidays because it will mean no Sunday School. which also means no Noreen and Carolyn and Bernice and all else to bug. :(  S!gh. Father’s Day is coming up, you guys better remember.

LOVES. oh and Pn Asimah if you read this, AHAHAHA.

i totally screwed my life up today. my Moral paper was a load of crap, and my AddMath2 was another load of crap. everything i did today was to ruin my own life. i could have done so much better, i don’t know why i didn’t. i screwed up numbers that were right in front of my fat face. i forgot things i have been memorising for months now. how could i have done such a thing? and the worst part is, i was so cool about it then.

i hate my devil-may-care attitude. maybe it was God who was there to calm me down, but how come he couldnt just stay till now? i feel like the world is ending really, and i’m depressing the people around me. where are my comforters when i need them? god alone knows. god alone knows whether my life is screwed or not either. i have to wait 3 tormenting weeks to get m exam papers back, and i probably will die of depression then.

before i die, i love you all. don’t forget.

and if you like, drop me a note of sympathy or condolences before i really blow. :’(

i just realised i do have some loyal buddies who check out what i post on here, so here i go on this HOT friday afternoon!

the last time i posted was May 4th, and today is the 18th. exactly two weeks i haven’t let the world now how i’ve been. let’s start.

the past few sundays have been cool! Carolyn and Noreen have been super fun and awfully sweet, although they did not buy me flowers on Mother’s Day. ahakk. they kept calling me Mom at the Montfort Carnival but no sign of appreciation. SHEESH, LOL!

other than that… the Mondays were usual. the Tuesdays, Wednesdays and Thursdays were study days or exam days. suddenly i can’t remember when the exams started, but they DID!! i’m like, studying my brains out of order, but Bio was okay. the Fridays were stay-back days, so extra heat was absorbed by my (NOW SICK) body. i’m having a fever, flu and horrid cough. SIGH.

fought with my bear a lot. a LOT. sigh. sadness. and Ashikin tore her ligament and i’ve lost some pounds (well, i hope i have) trying to help her around and doing stuff for her. another reasons why i’m called a FRIEND! love all of you pals lots!

Ameera comment-ed me that day, a nice surprise really, i thought she would have forgotten about this ol’ gal. glad to know she’s taking me to KAYU for my birthday, xD, and EVERYONE’S INVITED, LOL!! you’ll go broke girl!

i got 35/50 for BIO3. don’t know whether it’s bad or good, but highest in class is 39 so i didn’t fare so badly. ahaha.

oh and Laura? it doesn’t matter whether you didn’t get the JPA or not, damnit cuz you’re still a good buddy and little sister. you’re always going to be loved, and who needs JPA if you’ve got love? we’re all here for you la okay..?

i hope that left you all a little bit less blur about what’s been on with me. message me if you miss me, i almost don’t check my comments, ahaha!

XOXOX LOVE YOU ALL. TONNES XOXOX

and right now my head is in a mess. i’m thinking about weird stuff, maybes and maybe nots. i’m doing things i’m not supposed to do and i’m worrying about things that shouldn’t really, be my worry!

tired from Taichi and feeling a bit bugged. parents are both also not feeling so alright and tomorrow is a jam-packed day! sigh* off to school early in the morning and bible class then family dinner and stuff.

i can’t say what i want to say here, so i’ll sign off, just letting you all know i’m still alive and i still love you all.

xoxox