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no wonder they always say it’s never good to have relationships so early in life. when ‘dark times’ come, it always hurts and especially if you don’t know Christ the way everyone should. was it the Spirit speaking to me last night? freaky. totally.

if your ‘friend’ were to remember something you can’t and starts making you feel guilty about it (though to me, it’s something unimportant) and begins to rat and rat that if you don’t remember just that,the world (and everything in it) will end tonight, would you pretend to remember? would you be honest? how would you react? i need to know. i need a guide. i need someone who doesn’t mind that i don’t remember everything, i need someone who makes sure i’m alright before i go away. i need.

but that would be selfish wouldn’t it? to want to be understood. St Francis, i need to pray your prayer lots more. and God, help. i need every piece of shield you can give me from the evil of the world.

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on a different note, last night’s Praise and Worship session with all the cousins was fun! i hardly knew the songs, but i definitely began to cry at Breathe. i love that song, and it touches me, EVERYTIME! sometimes, you just know when He’s there. and you know his touch. so let it go. i did.

and i’m falling so so sick! i didn’t get any rest yesterday between activities because i was everywhere! finally bought my Confirmation outfit and finished my Chem. today at Chem, Hitakshi, Hannah, Ashikin and I were the first people in the lab and we did two experiments! Pn Shanthy was obviously pleased although we made lots of mistakes handling equipment.

just wanna say a big Thanks and I love You to Hitakshi and Ashikin for helping me find things to smile about and being supportive all the time. you guys are the best. not forgetting dila and tira, who never fail to share Coke with me when we eat Pedas stuff. mwaxx.

bleak.depressed.need love.amelia