yeah, cuz i feel like a woman and loving it!

lately, been kind of lazy and too busy to blog, but i guess i had some stuff to spew before i forgot!

[i love Twinx and always will]

this whole Aqua Grandeza thing is a drag now. so many hidden lies and deceit. the whole matter’s a mess. but anyway, i got to speak to JasonLo personally and that was really fun! i was shaking although it was a serious-business call, but who wouldn’t speaking to the guy they aspire to be?

besides that, my homework has lessened reasonably, but i should not be mentioning it, if not this streak of luck might end too quickly! it’s a holiday tomorrow, and Confirmation on Saturday, so tomorrow we’re gonna try out styles with my hair, try Squash, buy camp-stuff for Ashikin and Adila, write a speech for MoralWeek, and research lightly for WiraDebate! so many things to do in just one week. sigh**

i was just wondering whether blingyblob will work on my blogs so i’m trying out one today. if it doesn’t work, sorry!

My newest favourite teacher is Pn. Shanthy!! a private joke, that one.

gotta go.

xoxox.

amelia.

LOL! that didn’t even sound right. but anyway, i’m depressed. a little bit at least. my cousins left already (back to NZ) and i miss them! sigh* it was so fun having an exta 3 ‘kaki’ to play Mafia, and i miss learning how to talk weird from Kevin! Twinx is being a huge PAIN and i just wanna kick everything in my way.

and we all know i miss Laura! she’s my little sis. she was so nice dropping that comment on my blog. check it out! got lots of homework to do and debate to help out with. yesterday with Kenny, Ashikin, Hitakshi was so so fun!

merentas desa was so fun for us posers! and it was also very very hot. sigh* Hermine rocks anyway!

**peace**

xoxox.

depressed.needlove.amelia

no wonder they always say it’s never good to have relationships so early in life. when ‘dark times’ come, it always hurts and especially if you don’t know Christ the way everyone should. was it the Spirit speaking to me last night? freaky. totally.

if your ‘friend’ were to remember something you can’t and starts making you feel guilty about it (though to me, it’s something unimportant) and begins to rat and rat that if you don’t remember just that,the world (and everything in it) will end tonight, would you pretend to remember? would you be honest? how would you react? i need to know. i need a guide. i need someone who doesn’t mind that i don’t remember everything, i need someone who makes sure i’m alright before i go away. i need.

but that would be selfish wouldn’t it? to want to be understood. St Francis, i need to pray your prayer lots more. and God, help. i need every piece of shield you can give me from the evil of the world.

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on a different note, last night’s Praise and Worship session with all the cousins was fun! i hardly knew the songs, but i definitely began to cry at Breathe. i love that song, and it touches me, EVERYTIME! sometimes, you just know when He’s there. and you know his touch. so let it go. i did.

and i’m falling so so sick! i didn’t get any rest yesterday between activities because i was everywhere! finally bought my Confirmation outfit and finished my Chem. today at Chem, Hitakshi, Hannah, Ashikin and I were the first people in the lab and we did two experiments! Pn Shanthy was obviously pleased although we made lots of mistakes handling equipment.

just wanna say a big Thanks and I love You to Hitakshi and Ashikin for helping me find things to smile about and being supportive all the time. you guys are the best. not forgetting dila and tira, who never fail to share Coke with me when we eat Pedas stuff. mwaxx.

bleak.depressed.need love.amelia

yeah. just this morning i was being a grouch while my man was asleep. so weird how the mood changed last night, and next thing you know i slammed down the phone. but just like, 2 minutes ago things were fine again. it confuses me sometimes. sigh*

other than that, things been plain weird lately. i need to bring watermelon to school tomorrow, and two dudes have expressed interest in myself and i found it super freaky the first time. my goodness. he was 44 i think?

supposed to help out for Forensics, but am dying. thank god i’m not in. i would die under the stress. sheesh.

nothing much to say.

xoxox.

love.amelia

and old as it is, not any simpler. life is exactly "bagaikan telur di hujung tanduk" for me. everything is not sure or confirmed. except that i will be missing my cousins a lot when they go back to NZ. today was a wreckless, discipline-less day at school. the school is going haywire, and a lot of prefects are up the wall already. SJ messaged us suddenly saying she ‘needs’ me for something. i quote cuzzieJoshua : "sigh". life is weird.

i’ve had freaks message me on friendster lately. weird people. i gotta go anyway. xoxox

yes. just to come online now, seems like a chore. i have so much homework and even more weird-work. no more time for Amelia or anything (much) that’s sentiment to her! sigh**

but anyway, we’ve been spending quite some time with our cousins from New Zealand. Abigail. Kevin and Natalie. and seeing a lot of the other ones too! been fun playing Mafia but it got boring after a while, but Meow Concentration was super fun too! the blankey-sock game was hilarious.

so yesterday, i went to The Curve with Ashikin to meet up with Ameera, JP and Joey! Joey is *hotness* and super nice. cool dude. the whole piano-class thing came about and that was a laugh. Dila was almost bursting with jealousy today when she found out about whatever happened yesterday. big joke laa! Ean and Adam C were there, but we only saw Ean once, and that’s it. weird thing.

crushing. love my man!

xoxox.

i have not updated here, since like, school started? and it’s the second week already! have not had any time to myself, not much at a time at least, and days and nights are packed with homework (already)! life is so so nuts, and i will say i miss Laura! i regret not going lepak with her at every opportunity during the holidays, but noone is to be blamed for her screwed LCD. sigh**

so many weird things been happening, and somehow the first one on my mind is the poetry-writing competition! besides that, i’ve been like in a mess for every subject. life in form Five is kinda’ not so balanced. don’t know why.

House Sports Practices have begun. i just came back from mine, and obviously tired. sigh** i’ve been a bit more hardworking lately, doing homework a lot too. [Twinkles]. The whole Aqua Grandeza thing is also moving, i guess. i finally met JP that day, and figured that he’s also human. after waiting for A WHOLE HOUR, i figured that i wouldn’t have bothered if he were Zeus. LOL. but that Hamira chick was kinda’ sweet.

so anyway, LEO’s been kinda’ good too! we had our first GM and doing projects again! i’m skipping Forensics again, this year, and Pn Sabina is like "i’m gonna cekik you!" so funny la she. heehee! i’m beginning to love Physics and not minding the classes.

so anyway, not much else to talk about. at least, not much i can remember. sigh** my brain’s really tired. except that my cousins, aunt and uncle froM New Zealand are down here and i’m looking forward to some time with them. the whole prefect thing has also been keeping me busy…with the camp stuff and everything. we found an Nokia Ngage in ‘the box’ today. Mei Ting gatal. LOL.

should buzz off now. need to rest my bwains. whatever’s left of it.

i miss whom i should miss. can’t wait to sleep!

xoxox.amelia

it’s back to school for us! shucks. the good ol’ holidays passed like *snap* and left us craving for more! but anyway, why i say friendster is weird because it’s so so slow, and the compost-blog page was all out. it still looks out anyway. and life is weird too because just this morning (and it case you forgot, it was first day of school) we went a-trooping for girls with outrageously-coloured hair and sent (most of) them home. it was weird being in a new class with the same people. i know now, i’m afraid of change too! we totally didn’t want a new student with us. somehow.

but anyway, we didn’t do much today except be prefects. prefects in Assunta are synonymous to UNPAID SLAVES. LOL!! Hitakshi (baby) got me a sweet bar of chocolate! she is really sweet herself to remember us. it’s true what they say, you only know who your friends are (really) late in high school. by then, you just know who you’re keeping till you get married!

[Twinkles]

and now, i have nothing else to really blab out. i wanna open my IMVU page but it just won’t! bloody heck. sigh. but why am i being self-centred when people in Taiwan are suffering? have heard nothing about anything there. LOL. maybe cuz the internet is not working well. sheesh.

going to go now! [Twinkles]xoxox[Panda]