i mean yesterday was THE birthday la. everyone was being so sweet and nothing actually screwed up! i had three cakes(thanks to my parents, Ameera and of course Hitakshi) and the bday song was sung five times! people around me are so so cool. totally nice! and everything was just happening. today too. except during duty time after 10am. the form threes on Mutiara Top are I-DEE-OTS. totally. zalifah and dharushini were totally hilarious wanting to go shout at them and stuff.

thanks for all the birthday wishes and testimonials, buddies. special thanks to Noreen for ‘berbaik-ing’ with me. and Laura you’re totally funny la! jumping around today. so CUTE. oh and not forgetting the cuzzies Shivani and Hitakshi for staying up till midnight to send me entertaining sms-es. but most of all…thanks to my Twinkles for always wanting the best for me and the Visorak of course. Boggarak is SO SO ULTIMATE COOL! i love the spinner.

and my parents, not forgetting ‘em for buying me the crabs and michael owen t shirt even though they didn’t know he does NOT play for manchester united! they are so so funny. and abby of course, from NZ, for the birthday love. you guys rock and make my life a brighter, fun-ner one!

brazil rocks—amelia rocks too. LOL.

it’s making me crazy! they’re all going ga-ga over that Johnathan Putra VJ and it’s killing me! i hear nothing but him all day and i’m going nuts already. *sigh

everyone is so so surprised that 18 month relationships actually exist? like for Ameera 6 months isn’t the shortest relationship and for Nik 2 months was it. wow. Nik fuhreeked when i told her about ‘Simon’. LOL.

somehow re-start of school days (as in with the books and studies and teachers) isn’t so bad. catching up quite well. can’t wait for tomorrow! LOL. i’m so horribly perasan. just because it’s my birthday. ahaha.

i have nothing else to say or type except that i really like tosai now!! i ate two of it after school while being crazy with the JP fans. OF OBVIOUS CONCLUSION I AM NOT NOT NOT a JP fan but it’s rather a coincidence that all my friends usually nut over some guy whom i don’t know. ahaha.

although so i wouldn’t mind hanging out with him sometime at somewhere. it’d be really fun watching my whole clique turning green because someone else is sitting next to him. i gotta do that man, Ameera! i nak tengok diorang giler.

i love noone but my Twinkles!

can you imagine? it’s study time again. and it started off horribly. first my friends suck then i didn’t have time for my Twinkles. i’m still awfully tired from everything i’ve been doing and if we don’t make more than rm10,000 from stupid coffee morning i’ll scream so loud every human will regret not spending more than all they had on teh tarik. i bet i looked like a fool all morning but i guess it helped me not think about ‘—’. sigh. why does life get so hard at times?

nederlands lost 1-0 to portugal. dammit. it’s like the world thinks it hasn’t tortured me enough. and that other ‘dude’ is weird again. sigh. why do humans act a certain way that makes them totally incomprehensible?

i can’t stop thinking about something. i didn’t do anything to deserve such ‘friendship’. why am i so worthless to someone that’s worth so much?

if anyone has answers please pass them on as comments. i need some quite soon.

now i know how it feels to be losing a friend. it’s happened to me before but usually it doesn’t matter. today it does. maybe cuz she’s not just another friend. we didn’t click off immediately. it took us ages to get to where we are today. but now it’s all being washed away. the waves are hitting real hard. she’s getting to know all sorts of new people she may prefer and we’re both too busy to be friends anymore. we see each other less than once a week. she doesn’t bother calling. and she doesn’t bother to stay in my life anymore.

it’s quite sad how it’ll all end someday. maybe it will take us less than three months to break down. by september everything will be gone. she will have moved on so quickly and i will have to recover on my own.

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my cake turned out great and was probably the first thing to sell out this morning! yeay! my Twinkles is proud of me…he just can’t imagine how proud i am to be his. love my star.

nothing else to complain about except that i’m so so totally full even after washing a tar road! LOL!

Van Nistelrooy will survive. other than that Brazil takes the stand!

yes it is!! i can hardly jump for joy because i’m so tired…physically, mentally and emotionally. it was A HELL LOT OF FUN but i tell you sometimes it can hurt you. after this long awaited event now i’m going to lose all my pals to the dreaded SPM. i’m gonna miss ‘em so bad but you can’t clap with one hand. sometimes i gotta learn to let go.

yes Ameera it was really fun eating roti tisu with you!! you’re nuts la you.

anyway Lit Nite was  BLAST! we did so well and my parents were so sweet. Annishka is actually a brat and all my ‘gang’ who were there were just rocking! walking to A&W’s with Janice, Kathryn, Rachel, Lydia and Melissa was so so fun! especially saying hi to all the indian dudes around and singing crazy songs. LOL. we had fun bursting into out-of-limits party rooms too!

one of my great pals was being weird that night. i think it’s here. the something i dreaded. but it’s alright. a few months and everything will be alright…because it will be over. i hope it wont happen. i pray it wont. i treasure my friends too much.

BRAZIL rocks! i love my BABY TWINKLE STAR. *(i enjoyed the letter!)*

yeah man. i am going to freak soon! it’s all going to be over real soon…then all my form five pals will literally disappear from my world. they’re all going off to study…and i’m gonna crinkle up and die without their love! diminishing hugs and jokes and soon i’ll be a nerd like ‘em too! LOL.

anyway…it’s been a great day for me! it’s been 1.1/2 years since i first felt ‘it’. it’s so fun reminiscing about the past…and he’s extra super sweet. i fall in love again and again and sometimes it shows! i get all hyped up about nothing and begin to annoy my friends by TRYING to ballet everywhere! LOL.

I PROMISE i’ll try not to end this paragragh with LOL. LOL! i gotta say Lit Nite prep has been real fun. annoyances here and there but to whoever I’VE annoyed i’m sorry and i love y’all!

to all the people who are crazy about the World Cup thing…sleep more yeah! SPM is coming! *this message is for a certain group of people who should know who they are!)

Twinkle twinkle little star..i love every bit you are! Viva Brazil and Nederlands!

this Lit Nite thing is getting to me! i can’t stop humming and singing that song! crap. and today was hilarious somehow. somewhat annoying but hey Laura if you read this it’s fun to be friends again! really. i was cracking without your nonsense! LOL. memorising weird poems with you is worse. you keep forgetting your round hats of steel!

somehow i can’t wait for Lit Nite to come. after that my life is normal again! shucks. hanging out at school is quite fun if you’re with the right people! Annishka is hilarious! tearing her sister’s pants?! wow. i can NOT get a wackier board member in the incoming Leo B.O.D.! (of course the last board’s wackiest was Laura Low. nut.)

tomorrow is a really special day! i’ve been crazy in love for almost a year and a half now. from being afraid i’d dump the guy from fully confident he and i are gonna have three sons. it’s great!! and if you still bother to read here darlin’ i love ya!

my grades suck. and Shivani dude thanks for reading here sometimes and caring!! it’s feels nice to have someone care. mwaxx!

gotta go. Viva Nederlands! and of course my brazil la.

i tell you i could kill you, Laura! how could you have done such a thing???? you’re SO SO nuts! and then sending me funny letters early in the morning together with a little Goleo! you’re crazy. i was ‘heartbroken’ cuz i really thought that was the end. ohmygoshohmygoshohmygosh! you’re totally a pranker. man! i can’t even begin to think. there are so many questions!

you know…i complained to a MILLION people about you…i almost cried once. and you seem to think it’s funny, man! dude! you rock la. i should learn from you. SPM is so near and you’re playing around with your friends.

anyway dude i pray this is the first and last time you do this to me. it’s too nuts. it involves too much…knowing how close i think we are. you’re my pal and always will be.

Manchester United rawkz. and who cares if Brazilians are ugly?? football is about the ball. the ball ain’t got a face.

Lit Nite prep. is getting to me…i am falling sick. sheesh. and it’s not like the humans around me are making things any better. except for Twinkles alright! he’s a loving darling at least he doesn’t IGNORE ME because he CAN’T take a joke! i am so annoyed with HER. so much for ‘friends’.

anyway this year’s world cup is so disappointing. everyone’s playing SUCKS. it’s so weird. either spain or germany gonna win this year la. obvious crap. LOL.

i’m tired and depressed. have not been online in ages! but i have to go back to school now so rock on people!

denice chan you are jakun. damn funny. mwaxxxx Twinkles!

totally! yesterday was extremely fun! walking around with my closest friends from both school and church! it was kinda weird but after a while they kinda’ ‘clicked’ so it was okay. fun. kept switching topics to talk about! from Ashlee to cars to how good i talk BM! that cab driver guy was fun fun! LOL. he was nice i guess.

anyway basically it wa a good outing. very tiring but in the end it was worth it. i would’ve redone it if i could! sigh. (rami you should’ve come we would’ve driven you upside down!) LOL. anyway dear i hope you’re enjoying your vacation…wherever you are!

Moulin Rouge today was EMBARASSING. oh god. we sucked up there and it’s 2 weeks to Lit Nite. Fish it. some more the seniors were there…goodness gracious me.

other than that things are usual. i miss my Twinkles as usual! VIVA BRAZIL! VIVA BIONICLE!