yeah cuz when life gets hard you learn to differentiate your friends from your surrounding. friends back you up and love you and take care of what they can for you. i have a few of those friends in my life and again, i’m not complaining. i can hardly find anyone else who would have such friends. but anyway i love mine. love twinkles too!

and i found some of each in my life today! i shall not quote any names but yeah i think the world is quite fair.

anyway twinkles i love you!

gotta go do stuff. love myself!

quite funny now it’s over. but everyone at mcdonald’s was freaking staring at us! i was the last to be interviewed…even Joel went earlier than i did. *sigh*

i love ma’ Twinkles. although sometimes you may feel i don’t know you, darling, you know deep down i want to and i want to be the closest ever to you! i love you LOTS! i’m sure you know.

anyway whoever reads this…GO FOR THE LEO IDOL FINALS! proceeds go to charity i think… and besides…if you’re sweet enough to read here you probably would like to see 12 dudes perform(which include me of course LOL) so get your rm 10 tickets (not that expensive) from me or on the 22nd april itself. the finals are from 3-7pm yeah!

nothing much else…except that my HORROR has begun. Lit Nite. it should be fun but Gayatri wants me to be performance director?? wert??? i could do that i guess…bug people… LOL. beware all ELDS dudes!

my IU wasn’t too bad…(i’m totally lying) to me it sucked big time but i have to agree i kinda’ saved the show a few times. only a few times though. it was quite fun being on stage but the crowd wasn’t really cool. Belle is SO SWEET! she’s quite pretty and so sweet and so cute. she deserves to be the co-host of that blastoff thing. LOL.

anyway i shall stop crapping now. all my love~!

i freak out about one thing and suddenly everything’s just not important. i expect some encouragement and help but all he tells me there are worse things to come and what i’m doing tomorrow is no big deal even though it is HUGE! sheesh. and if you don’t believe me then say la…

anyway i shall not crap everything out…he’ll probably get mad and think i’m a whiny piece of crap…i cant say what i feel… and it happens everywhere! i used to be so confident…i spoke my mind…but now…i shut up and let people manipulate and make use of me… i dont know what happened. i dont seem to have the power to refuse anyone anymore…i can’t scold and shout like i could. i’m a softie inside now. oh GOD. help me.

it’s good friday! sigh. thanks Jesus. i feel for you. but i will offer up all my pain to you…thank you.

Man utd. rocks. all the way! i love him even though we’re not perfect.

yeah. quite weird. i’ve been online only once this week excluding today. ahaha. how funny. i’ve been SO DARN busy! i still am busy but it is 7 am so i have nothing to do yet. later i got church…i got sunday school class…vocal training… then band practice at Lyd’s. sigh. i have no life now! so much for Asst. IU dIR.! well i have N0T started my vp or secretary assignments yet…looks like i wont be able to be in the next BOD for LEO.

i am so bloody sleepy even my language sucks right now. big time! i am so so blur and so so tanned. gotta love my tan but my [special someone] thinks baby pandas should be fair and white and yukky looking LOL! just kidding. [don't kill me ya!]

anyway just gotta say i love ***. and all my pals even though some are not as nice as they were once.

manchester united rocks the rocking football world! ryan cabrera and the queens and Lonestar to the end.

the only thing that i wouldn’t redo is losing my 50 bucks. that’s about it! i’d even wear my heels for so long again. it was so fun! just almost all my sayangs were there. the most special one wasnt but my pals and my clique were all around and it was just HAPPENING! Laura. Noreen. Ashikin. Dila. some berita assunta journalist dudes. two new volunteer friends from Unicef. Noreen’s family. mdm. shanthy. all the futsal dudes! it was just heck fun! the bomb i tell ya. [LOL. sape-sape tu jgn. terasa. i put the names in the order i saw them. k?]

anyway…it’s great doing voluntary work even though it was like giving fliers away and getting people to play a game. VERY fun if you’re doing it around lovable people. Syakirin is quite sweet. cassandra was very sophisticated. LOL. and laura damn jakun. lunch with her was hilarious! it was seriously so so freaking cool yesterday…the whole way through. even the mcdonald’s dude was around when i went to buy icecream. LOL. [jgn marah ye sayang??]

anyway…poor Laura was sobbing cuz she couldnt get to play. and Noreen was so upset she didn’t win the last match. sigh. i’m like on this weird sea of tears and laughter. you never know when the waves come and hit. LOL. [can't wait for the pict of 'i love amelia' on the sand, dear!]

jo lynn is SO cute. ohmygosh. can’t believe anyone can have more adorable cousins. ahaha. vice president. damn jakun. change money also must masuk Nike??!!?!

anyway…i should stop crapping so much. glad i got pics of yesterday. they’ll be on my profile and in the album if anyone wants to see ‘em.

all my love to twinkles. man utd. my pals and ryan cabrera!