she’s in hospital and i couldn’t feel worse for leaving ipoh. i just wanna keep her next to me all the time. she can’t talk just groan and she was on the respirator before this…Sad.

anyway it’s great to be home and online! it was great seeing some of my relatives again….especially my nephews and niece. Hin Hin is so so cute. somehow he won’t eat unless i feed him LOL. bratty though. what to do. spoilt so so bad. LOL.

i dunno what to say except that…unexpected people been reading my blogs LOL and that’s kinda cool i guess. weird emails been received and just weird la. AHAHA. wanna go out with all those jakuns tomorrow…entah jadi ke tak.

I LOVE YOU TWINKLES although you haven’t been exactly lover material past few nights. LOL. (peepz i’ve been in ipoh k, he wasn ‘t!) don’t get me wrong. LOL.

signing off_manchester united and ryan cabrera fan.

wow i just saw his picture and then i’m like nuts about it. KYLE RIABKO IS SO SO HOT! skinny, yes, but he looks like an innocent boy with his guitar. like ryan’s younger bro or something! first time i’m hearing his name but he’s hot. MAN!!

sorry scott liverpool’s never gonna win man utd ever!! and definitely not 13-0. too bad. LOL.

ryan cabrera is so funny..so romantic. but he loves buying all his lovers puppies!! WHY??? haihzz…i also want puppy la like that… TWINKLES?????

haihz. i damn tension la now. dunno why also. today we burnt a few pots and pans at school for rangers! cooked some funny corn soup. damn yuck man. shit like that!

love you twinkles. sorry i woke you so early today but happy CNY!! love you so much. too bad both of us can’t give out red-packets…YET. together we give k next time! that also means PLEASE MARRY ME. lol.

i wanna know what her name is….man i’ve seen so much of her but i dunno her name. once i know…GONE CASE. i’m going to make her life miserable. LOL. i was talking about two different hers anyway.

LOL. i’m going nuts. bubbyez.

haih. sometimes i feel like burning my school down and all the juniors and junior teachers in it. especially the guard too. you guys are so irritating.

shivani there’s no new topic. it’s still that feminism thing. and i’m not in forensics anymore. dedicating myself to the Leo MCC. which you have to go for anyway if you do still care why i’m alive. i’m performing for charity so go and be proud of me.

twinkles…sorry i’ve been a little busy lately not enough time talking to you…but please remember i love you okay?? a lot lot lot. and don’t you worry about Michael Denton over in california…he’s a great pal i talk to him when you and i are having our downs….he’s really supportive of you and i. okay?? MUAKKZZ.. i love you so much!! it’s been ages loving you and i wanna spend another lifetime doing just that.

just talking about loving you (twinkles lar!) and i’m cooled down. i’m so easily roused up about certain things. oh and boon may if you ever read this LOL i love ya!! it’s really nice to see you smiling cuz we’ve never been close but you’re a nice girl and should continue being nice. very fun.

got to go. everyone reading this please keep praying for me grandma. Bernice, Noreen, Isabelle, Stef and Vanessa..??? I MISS YOU GUYS LOADS. have a fun fun CNY. love who i love. you should know. signing off~

or am i?? i don’t get you sometimes, Mike. *sigh* am i really changing? over the past few months? but how? i don’t feel it…noone else told me. maybe because you’re in california and we haven’t been talking much lately…i know you’re stressed out and all and i haven’t been much of a friend…but have i really changed?

can someone answer me? Twinkles perhaps? man, mike you got me thinking…HOW? haihz…

anyway…if anyone reads this please pray for my grandmother. she’s in ICU and she needs lots of prayers.

all my love to the rest of the world.. all Man. Utd. fans and Ryan Cabrera fans especially.

yeap…been adding people i hardly like. OH MY. anyway…i love you twinkles. can’t believe it’s been a year or so now. and since i didn’t write here yesterday happy anniversary!! wow we got past the unlucky number so now the rest will be totally funky! haihzz…i dilemma giler sekarang nie. got forensics and mcc on the same day. HOW AR? then this Laura dude…asking me to perform for gathering. yang tu i tak sure lagi but she’s not the only one encouraging me to perform. HAIHZZ. tension giler babeng. this YE thing also damn sien weh. lazy lar wanna join. i tak ambitious sangat. as long commited in one or two things okay lar right?? i’m sure you’d support me! right Twinkles?? You haven’t been calling me my nickname anyway. hmmm….

right….i got plenty of homework…haiya..,.why tomorrow got physics ar?? this teacher very sien lar. today touch my hand all. she’s so lemah lembut sometimes i pity her. *thank god she’s married* if not all of us will be gossiping about her like crap.LOL. SHE’S so sweet but we are all like jakuns sitting around just looking at her… BLURNESS is what it is.

pink! i’m starting to love this shade of pink. and i can’t wait for the CNY holidays…go lepak with all my darlins’. go havoc all the shopping malls and cinemas…MWAHAHAHA.

manchester united beat liverpool! YES!!! and oh my gosh i can’t go on ryan today…sad.

signing off with all my love going out to the real Manchester United and Ryan Cabrera fans! **also to Twinkles lar!!**

i’ve had dance, rangers, singing, studies and having fun crammed up in one day! i’m so tired and i miss Ezekiel SO SO MUCH! i wish he were here…sadly he’s so far away. and for those who didn’t know… Ezekiel’s a boy i wanna adopt from an orphanage in another state. he’s just so adorable!!! he can make me smile without smiling himself. *sigh* ultimate cuteness.

SHIVANI YOU CAN BE SO ANNOYING SOMETIMES. you know i care about you but ignoring me when you’re down…fine la. have it your way k! haihz. what’s the world coming to??

yeay thank god the weekend is here…! i’ll be going to church soon enough can lepak with all those jakuns…and finally finish giving those last presents away. i totally miss you, jakun friends of mine! haha. sadly got no gathering this sunday..

nothing else to scribble here. except that i haven’t heard much about ryan these few days… haven’t been online. love who i love. MANCHESTER UNITED ALL THE WAY! (by the way the manchester united shortbread jam thing is so sweet and so cool!)

signing off, all my love, Crushproof girl.

and Twinkles in case you think i forgot, i love you. always. no matter how many times you get mad or how many times i gotta cry. you have my heart…it’s been cut to fit yours. still in the process of cutting it i guess, but someday our hearts will fit to be the most beautiful work of art in this world…thanks for talking to me today anyway!

mu and rc fans unite!

wow that’s actually a cool title for my blog. ashlee and ryan’s album names!!! cool. they so belong together. that Lisa feller mengacau lar… eeeyyyeerrr…. everyone’s accepting it but NO it’s Ashlee and Ryan forever!!! they are so so adorable together. Braxton should get outta the way too. maybe braxton and lisa would be a better combination. LOL. don’t kill me dila!!

anyway… nOrEen i’m sorry i said certain things to ya i didn’t mean. i guess i was just mad at you for not being what i expected everyone to be. i mean, WHO asks you how your sis is before she asks how you are?? that’s just weird. and of course i call you cuz i want to. i wasn’t forced to call you but you sound TOO SARCASTIC. i hate that and you continue no matter what i say.

shivani sorry i didn’t stay on a while today. i rushed home. my parents nag a bit too much and suspect my every move. to them somehow i’m always doing something wrong just because of a mistake. "*"haih"*" so i decided to come home early and be a good little brat. LOL. always been.

thanks Twinkles. for a lot of things and everything. you should know…LOL

mancabrera undefeated and manchester united all the way!!

why la now must fall sick??? aihz. tonight supposed to go shopping!! i don’t care. i wanna wanna wanna go!!

anyway it’s like so hot here. must be the fever. can’t wait to go back to sunday school! miss the gang. macam orang giler je ketawa macam babeng.

anyway…anyone got a picture of Ryan and Lisa together? i have never seen Lisa before…goodness’. outdated fuh-reek. LOL.

i still don’t understand what happened to you in america shiviez. you’re still lucky anyway that you got to see ryan walking talking smiling….AARRRHHH…..! i wanna see ryan smile. he’s a hottie!

my babe’s a hottie too. lovely smile and i wanna watch the cantata video!!!!! how do i get it?? not fair. i wanna watch. i wanna wanna wanna.

**darling can you get a ryan bear for me this birthday this year?? please?**

signing off. ** for Twinkles!

MANCABRERA UNDEFEATED AND MANCHESTER UNITED ALL THE WAY!

ya lar. thank god she’s out of my life. thank and praise the one and only living God. again, she ruined one part, Twinkles got the rest back for me.. NOW i’m gonna help the others.

Shivani i got your back all the time anyway! don’t jump off any top cuz i’m feeling so lazy go catch you now. send ma love to ryan…he’s the bo0mb!

MANCHESTER UNITED ALL THE WAY! UNITE!